Archive for September, 2005

Surat Terbuka Untuk STRANGER… 5

miss stranger… i love u no matter what… u made my life more simpler than ever. so if u want to make me dissapear from yourlife, just ask so. coz i dont really care whoever u r with, and i dont care how i felt at this moment. and i dont blame u of what happenned, it just the time. its not the time for me to express my feelings towards u. so nevermind me. i dont hate u, u dont hurt me at all… ingatkan when i sad i pernah rasa lagi teruk, and thats true…

so if we could be like before, it will be an honour to me… u make me smile u know. just the thought of seing u online makes my day… :) so plz do extra good in your exam. we’ll talk about this later in much more suitable time…

p/s:- i dont hate u. i love u. as a fren, as a mate, as a soul, as a person, as a distance voice. thank you.

esok saja…

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Susah Hati… 2

been worrying about something for the past few days. tambah lagi dengan demam yang masih belum fully recovered. worrying about things i shouldnt considered to be a part of mylife, afterall, she’s surely wouldnt have me as a part of hers.

missing someone that isnt a part of your daily life is hard. why should you be missing her? she doenst feel the same towards you. so why bother right? tapi entah lah…

hati ini rasa sesal kerana bercakap yang benar kepadanya. rasa lebih baik disimpan sahaja apa yang terpendam. sekarang bila dia sudah tahu, aku rasa diri dia makin jauh. disengajakaan atau tidak, itu aku kurang pasti. tapi rasa semakin renggang walhal sebelum ini pun kami tidak pernah rapat. aku pun macam mahu jauhkan diri. rasa malu. susah. jadi STRANGERS yang mengharapkan sesuatu. and if i am a knight, when you scrapped and take off all of those rusted armour, still u’ll get flesh and bone. arghhh. apa yang aku fikir nie. adoi. kecamuk ahh.

dewa dewa turun melahirkan keraguan di hati manusia biasa…

aku akan hilang kejap buat seminggu dua maybe, nak kena adjust diri kepada environment baru… aku rasa aku perlukan seseorang, tapi aku tak mahu rush into things. mungkin betul cakap emak aku, sesetengah daripada kita manusia, dilahirkan tidak akan berteman, dilampirkan sekali dengan contoh contoh. ahahaha.

JANJI JONI adalah filem terbaik pernah aku tonton tahun ini. By far the most impressive, lebih impressive daripada PGL, SEPET, or even GOL & GINCU. Rachel Maryam nampak amat cute dan begirtu juga Mariana Renata. And Nicholas Saputra juga nampak mcm lelaki betul, tak macam lelaki kayangan dalam AADC. gik la tgk, sure amazed.

argh… barang belum pack,
kalau orang tanya “Kau nak pergi mana?”,
jawab aku, “Nak pergi mampus,”.

esok saja…

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Dewa Kayangan Turun Bermain??? 13

aku ingat hari ini akan jadi baik, tapi dipertengahan, jadik mellow pula. melancholik sungguh. hidup aku bagai satu kisah panjang yang tiada noktah, makin lama, makin penuh dengan epik yang makin suram. dalam lawak jenaka yang aku hambur, terselit bunyi mendayu sedih dalam suara dan bait bait perkataan. siapa yang boleh sedar. siapa yang acap kenal rasa hati aku ini…

bermimpi sahaja. anganan bodoh. terlalu tinggi aku berkhayal…

manakan dewa kayangan mahu ingin turun bermain dengan manusia biasa di bumi kotor.

esok saja…

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NizamNuri’s Rahsia Project… 9

aku sorry sebab tak cerita detail project ni…
ok here are a few details about it…

Hubungi:-
http://nizam-nuri.blogspot.com
http://surie.blogspot.com
Beck

atau terus ke sini
DIGITAL FHOTO JERITAN JIWA

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Trees – Marty Casey 5

I…don’t want to go through this…life…
Without you…by my side…
And I’ve got it all worked out…in my head.

Here’s how it’s got to be:
It’ll be you, and me, up in, the trees,
And the forest will give us the answers.

WE…we’ll make believe…
In a world we rule together.
Weeeeeee can build our dreams
With a knot tied tight to last forever.

It’ll be you, and me, up in, the trees
And the forest will give us the answers.
It will be you, and I, up in the sky.
It’s a combination for distaster.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahyeah, yeah.
We got one shot, so where do we go from here?

It’ll be you, and me, up in, the trees
And the forest will give us the answers.
It’ll be you, and I, up in the sky.
It’s a combination for disaster.
And I know there’s more for us in this life!

download this song here for a limited time only!!!

“it’ll be you and me, up in the trees…” – fendy

some “STRANGER” told me, everythings going to be fine for me eventually. how i wish… how i wish i have “THE STRANGER” to myself and be my comfort everyday on my deepest hours of life… how i wish again… hopefully, i wont scare her away like i always do to peoples lately…

esok saja…

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Tension Days Are Here… 0

to qeela SORRY, I’M TRUELY AM, I’M THE WORST JERK AROUND!!!
to wanie I’LL TRY TO GET THOSE PIC YOU WANT IN A FEW DAYS!!!

and to all I’LL BE AWAY FOR A FEW DAYS, JUST HAVE TO GET MY ACT BACK!!!

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Here In My Room – Incubus 7

This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white
You enter in fullblown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight

If the world would fall apart
In a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn’t change a thing
Now that you’re here

Yeah, love is a verb here in my room
Here in my room, here in my room

You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world as seen from the stars
If only the lights would dim a little
I’m weary of eyes upon my scars

Pink tractor beam into your incision
Head spinning as free as dervishs’ whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being that kind of girl
That kind of girl

“Saya sakit… Saya tukar blog punya layout… Saya rindu pada seseorang. Boring… Sekian… ” – fendy

Esok saja…

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Seriously Or Cynically Genius???!!! 17

Betul ke aku eja Cynical as in sinis kat tajuk tu?

Persepsi orang bahawa aku sudah tukar jadi gay membuatkan aku ketawa berguling-guling kat lantai bilik aku yg sempit nie… Aku gay? Aku pun tak sedar bila masa aku tukar orientasi seksual aku…

Baim cakap sebab gaya penulisan aku terlalu serius… Erm, setahu aku, I never wanted my writings to be serious, but more to cynical and down right facts and sometimes mellow dramatics. Facts of life, my life exactly. None others…

Kenalan aku suruh aku listkan blog aku dalam Malaysia Topblogs, so sesapa yang rasa aku berhak dapat vote dan suka cara aku menulis silalah sudi vote…

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Fix You – Coldplay 6

When you try your best but you dont succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you cant sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cant replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
If you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I…

Tears stream down your face
I promise you that I’ll learn from my mistake
Tears stream down your face and I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Post aku yang sebelum ni pasal Anak Merdeka tu, mendapat banyak reaksi yang bercampur gaul. Ada yang faham, ada yang setuju, ada yang tidak, dan ada juga yang tersentak dengan post itu. Secara seriusnya, aku tidakkisah apa orang nak cakap pada aku, jadi korang pun patut tidak kisah apa yang aku tulis di sini dan yang terkena batang hidung korang.

Dan aku juga bukan anti social, racist, atau pro islam. Aku orang biasa…

Esok saja…

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The Freshman 5

When I was young I knew everything
She’s a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I’m guilt stricken, sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby’s breath and a shoe full of rice
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My best friend took a week’s vacation to forget her
His girl took a week’s worth of valium and slept
Now he’s guilt stricken sobbing with his head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says
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We’ve tried to wash our hands of all of this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we’re guilt stricken sobbing with our heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip, we’d say

I can’t be held responsible
‘Cause she was touching her face
I won’t be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we’d never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we’d ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

We were merely freshmen
We were only freshmen

Did anyone of you guys remember this song or ever heard of it? I think it was in 1996 or so. The video clip looks like the singer of the band was being interogated by police, in an old room, with one light bulb hanging from the ceiling, an old table and the singer just sing the song like a confession… Great song… Look for it… OK…” – fendy

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