surie peha gebu. dengan bangganya aku postkan gambar ni kat sini. hahaha. aku dah dapat.
Nike Dunk Low Hitam Swoosh Merah!!! 1994
aku jadi selfish tahun ini. adakah diri ini jadi baik bila pentingkan diri sendiri sedangkan selama ini aku pentingkan orang lain dan tidak mendapat apa yang aku inginkan… pentingnya diri sendiri…
jadi pentingkan diri sendiri, aku beli kasut ni!!!
esok saja…
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tadi aku pergi buffet ramadhan dengan aimee kat mcD. RM18 seoarang, all u can eat, or capable to eat… sampai awal, dan pagi tadi hantar scoot ke kedai cat. tak jadi cat ngan kawan aimee, sbb dia buat perangai orang melayu ni, orang melayu yang suka mungkir janji. susah maju la dia. ahahaha… aku nak kasik dia cat, sekurang-kurangnya dapat la duit, tapi taknak, so aku kasik orang cina cat. kena RM150. warna biru…nanti aku post gambar scoot lepas cat.
so berbalik kepada citer buffet tadi. aimee melantak macam kanak kanak kebulur, dia sorang je, akalu aku tak silap kira, 8 biji berbagai jenis burger, kemudian foldover satu, nugget sebungkus, dan sundae strawberry. adoi. makan tak baca bismillah betul…
aku pulak, one chicken mcdeluxe, two bigmac, one mcchicken, sebungkus nugget, dua coke, satu bandung, dah sengkak. terus terlantar kat kerusi mcD tu…
makan tak ingat dunia. bulan puasa, bulan melantak…
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ah.. rupanya dah lebih 100 post dah kat EKSPRESI GERAK SUSUR MANUSIA PRAHISTORIK DIGITAL blog ni. hooray.. moga ada rezeki untuk tulis 100 lagi post akan datang.
ngahahaha…
baim baim. mula mula marah ngan Cik Putih. lepas tu bila nak balik, waktu tunggu lif, Cik Putih tegur Baim sekali lagi. lepas tu ntah hapa kena budak ni sekor, dia gelak ketawa sorang sorang, dari lif sampai la parking lot. aku rasa atas motor pun dia gelak. dai tak percaya kot yang Cik Putih tu tegur dia. alah Baim, kau kan jejaka yang dilengkapi dengan kuasa x-facktor. mesti anak dara penang minat kat kau dari minat kat aku. ngahahhaa…
lepas tu bila naik motor nak balik (aku naik satu motor dengan Baim, save minyak sikit), baim yang terkenal dengan sikap pemanduan perlahan macam kura-kura pergi sight seing tu, tetiba pecut laju merempit. laju giler, cilok-mencilok. ini bukan sifat Baim yang sebenar. aku tau Baim, kau sedang gembira kerana Cik Putih tegur kau bukan aku. kau hebat. ngahaha :p
penangan Cik Putih, PTD baru kat UPEN terhadap Baim amatlah kuat…
pagi tadi waktu bangun tidur pun, tetiba tanya aku, “Kita kena pergi UPEN ke?”. selama sebulan aku kerja dengan dia, tak pernah sekali pun dia tanya soal soal nak pergi UPEN nih… Baim, jejaka yang dilengkapi kuasa x-facktor. ngahahaha…
hari ni last day kerja, lepas tu cuti. sempat juga lah aku cat pintu pagar rumah, seperti mana aku janji dengan emak aku. syok la dia, anak sulung dia jadi hamba abdi dia seminggu. tak berbayar. tapi aku puas bila mak aku cakap terima kasih pada aku. rasa bangga. merasa juga raya tahun ini sebagai perantau, walaupun perantau jauh tak sampai 140km pun. dekat tu…
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sometimes, when we search for something or someone, to mend a broken heart, u’ll end up finding something or someone else. when u search for the one who will make you whole again, you probably will end up opening new scars.
i’ve found someone who makes me sane again. but then, she was never meant for me. but then, i realizes, she’s just another me. the same of me, similar in so many ways. we share common things with each other. the other me…
i’ll always try to make the other me happy, coz she deserves it. kan kan?
as stranger as she is, she’s me, the other me…
esok saja…
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tajuk di atas takde kena mengena dengan apa yang aku nak tulis kat sini. saja nak kasi nama kawan-kawan aku naik kat blog aku ni… ngahahah!!!
aku demam oi. demam teruk ni. disusuli dengan batuk batuk kecil. baim cakap aku nak mampus (dia ckp time aku tulis ni). aku tak rasa aku leh contributekan utk DIGITAL FHOTO JERITAN JIWA untuk tema bulan ni. harap-harap semuanya berjalan lancar. promosi kurang sikit utk tema kali ni. surie peha gebu tak buat kerja promosi ni. ngahahhaa….
giler, abg rosdi turn alor setar ajak main bowling hari sabtu lepas, main sampai 5 game sorang. sampai nak tercabut tangan aku neh. best sangat sampai dia nak turun sekali lagi main. ngahahha… average 180. ok ahh tu.
dada rasa sempit sangat. prof benarkan aku balik, tapi takpe la. kalau balik pun, bukan leh buat apa kat umah sewa tu. bukan ada ps2 ke, pc ke. tv pun, channel astro tak penuh. aku rasa nak amik ps2 yang lynn nak tolak tu la.
rindu pada dilla tak habis lagi. kawan kawan suruh lupakan aje. tapi time time sakit ni, kalau tak ingat pada tuhan, tak ingat pada orang tersayang, nak teringat pada sapa lagi. kan? kawan kawan emua happy happy nak sambut raya dengan pasangan masing masing. best nye… aku sendiri je, layan jiwa. ngahahhaa… lawak ahh raya tahun ni jadinya.
esok saja…
p/s:- nantikan kemunculan artikel bertajuk RAYA TAHUN INI…
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kata Nizam.Nuri, “Susah hidup sebagai seorang Beck,” dan aku harap, tiada lagi Beck lain selepas ni. Moga-moga tiada lah seorang lagi Beck di muka bumi ni. aku taknak orang lain rasa macam mana aku rasa…
dan semalam, perkara sama berulang. mimpi aku kali ini ketemukan aku dengan dia, tetapi sepatah apa pun tidak terucap, cuma dihulurkan sekeping sampul, yang isinya aku pun tidak tahu samada surat, ataupun kad. kemudia, dia berlalu pergi. walhal aku cuba kejar, tapi jalannya semakin laju.
setiap kali aku cuba untuk meneliti isi kandungan surat tu, setiap kali aku ingin buka dan baca sampul itu, pasti ada yang mengganggu. lebih dari empat kali aku cuba membuka sampul surat itu, tetapi empat kali jugalah ada yang mengganggu. sampailah terjaga dengan bunyi alarm handphone budak baim…
seriously, aku nak tahu apa isi kandungan sampul tu…
kata Nizam.Nuri, “Susah hidup sebagai seorang Beck,”
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what i fear the most already happened. in the past few days, everynight in my sleep, i’ve dreamt of her. i’ld like for it to be gone. but then, how much i missed her. oh Allah. make this stop. i want to live like other people, esspecially like her, care free. not thinking about what was the past, and it should be gone.
seriously, i dont even know what i’m writing about.
drowning in sorrow. yes i am.
esok saja…
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Turn out the light
Just say goodnight to yourself
May I remind you when you find you,
You’re all alone is when you’ve got to be strong
Cause that’s when they call you in the night
He’s got your picture in his mind
He’s got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime
Is it really true
Could you save yourself for someone who
Loves you for you
So many times we just give it away,
To someone who Someone who you
Met in bar the back of a car
And for a moment you felt important
but not in your heart
My self esteem it’s been low
Go ahead and count it’s been lower than low
I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
I want to learn
how you save yourself for someone who
Loves you for you
So many times we just give it away
To someone who couldn’t even
Remember your name
Could you save yourself for someone who
Loves you for you, loves me for me
Give it away to someone who
Someone who will cherish your name
Cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for
Someone who will love you for you
So many times we just give it away
Someone who couldn’t even remember your name
You save yourself for someone who
Loves you for you, loves me for me
Give it away to someone who, someone who will
Cherish your name
Cherish your name
“A stranger sent this mp3 file to me. It describe what i felt all this long…” – fendy
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beckzaidan (10:24:22 AM): u know
beckzaidan (10:24:28 AM): smlm
beckzaidan (10:24:35 AM): i tried to call my x
stranger* (10:24:41 AM): n then?
beckzaidan (10:24:41 AM): miss her so much
stranger* (10:24:45 AM): laa.
beckzaidan (10:25:11 AM): tak tahu kenapa i berani call dia
beckzaidan (10:25:15 AM): tapi dia reject my calls
beckzaidan (10:25:19 AM): so isend her msgs
stranger* (10:25:22 AM): ok
beckzaidan (10:25:24 AM): tapi no repy
stranger* (10:25:26 AM): wat did she say
beckzaidan (10:25:27 AM): reply
stranger* (10:25:28 AM): owh
stranger* (10:25:36 AM): dia ada bf baru ka
beckzaidan (10:25:37 AM): ntah
beckzaidan (10:25:41 AM): dont know
beckzaidan (10:26:27 AM): kecewa giler
beckzaidan (10:26:29 AM): slept on it
stranger* (10:27:45 AM): hmm
stranger* (10:27:49 AM): jgn la rasa mcm tu
stranger* (10:27:54 AM): u wanna know sumthing?
stranger* (10:28:11 AM): hari ahad lepas i msged my ex
stranger* (10:28:19 AM): yg of 4 years tu
stranger* (10:28:20 AM): huhu
beckzaidan (10:28:24 AM): ahaha
beckzaidan (10:28:27 AM): the intention
stranger* (10:28:30 AM): dia tak reply jugak
stranger* (10:28:35 AM): tapi semalam dia reply
beckzaidan (10:28:45 AM): skrg kurangnya dia reply
stranger* (10:28:51 AM): well
stranger* (10:28:57 AM): msg dia pun bukan apa
stranger* (10:29:15 AM): just nak mintak maaf fo all the things dia kena go thru
stranger* (10:29:24 AM): as in selepas break up tu
stranger* (10:29:54 AM): dia la org yg fiza terpaksa buat dia sampai dia benci fiza
stranger* (10:30:03 AM): but now dia dah ada gf lain
stranger* (10:30:08 AM): imhappy
stranger* (10:30:19 AM): lagipun gf dia tu i knal
beckzaidan (10:31:24 AM): hoh
beckzaidan (10:31:29 AM): i harap my x reply my msg
beckzaidan (10:31:36 AM): tapi tak pun
stranger* (10:32:18 AM): maybe she will
stranger* (10:32:23 AM): tapi bila kita taktau
stranger* (10:32:34 AM): maybe in the near future
stranger* (10:32:43 AM): or maybe just some where in the future
beckzaidan (10:32:58 AM): ntah
beckzaidan (10:33:05 AM): wanna knwo something
beckzaidan (10:33:13 AM): me masih got the feelings for her
beckzaidan (10:33:19 AM): wish that well be beack together again
beckzaidan (10:33:40 AM): and thats why i never have the guts or will to have a nother new relationship
beckzaidan (10:33:49 AM): susah jadi saya ni kak fiza
stranger* (10:34:24 AM): ya Allah fendy
stranger* (10:34:32 AM): we r similar in mny ways
stranger* (10:34:42 AM): i guess u will eventually be ready
stranger* (10:34:49 AM): when the right peson comes along
stranger* (10:35:00 AM): tak payah mcm bersungguh cari
stranger* (10:35:10 AM): as in wishing n hoping everyday
stranger* (10:35:15 AM): just live ur life
stranger* (10:35:30 AM): nanti when u least expect it,it’ll come ur way
stranger* (10:35:37 AM): at last that’s wat happened to me
beckzaidan (10:35:50 AM): but then, i still have the feelings for her
beckzaidan (10:36:00 AM): still linger eveyrtihng about her
stranger* (10:36:09 AM): i still had tiny feeling for my ex jugak
beckzaidan (10:36:12 AM): miss her smiles and laughs the most
stranger* (10:36:15 AM): dah lama kan dgn dia
stranger* (10:36:21 AM): u pun dah lama ngan ex u tu
stranger* (10:36:29 AM): of couse it’ll linger
beckzaidan (10:36:29 AM): tiny… but i have the same feelings when we re both are still couples
stranger* (10:36:33 AM): susah nak erase
stranger* (10:36:38 AM): sbb itu memories
beckzaidan (10:37:02 AM): miss her smiles, miss her laugh, miss twirling her around
beckzaidan (10:37:15 AM): miss the way she always wraps her fingers around mine
beckzaidan (10:37:24 AM): miss the smell of her hair
beckzaidan (10:37:37 AM): miss standing besides her even
beckzaidan (10:38:07 AM): ingat je, dah bergenang air mata
beckzaidan (10:38:15 AM): its hard to be me…
stranger* (10:40:00 AM): la..
stranger* (10:40:04 AM): fendy jgn mcm ni
stranger* (10:40:05 AM): pls
stranger* (10:40:14 AM): i knw exactly how u feel
stranger* (10:40:26 AM): maybe u r not ready to be with sumone new
stranger* (10:40:33 AM): kena heal urself dulu
stranger* (10:40:45 AM): before plunging urself into a new relationship
beckzaidan (10:40:56 AM): i cnat see myselh with another person la fiza
beckzaidan (10:41:01 AM): myself*
stranger* (10:41:14 AM): aaa
stranger* (10:41:20 AM): we’re so on the same boat
stranger* (10:41:27 AM): i can feel my heart twitching
stranger* (10:41:30 AM): raa sakit
stranger* (10:41:33 AM): terasa
stranger* (10:41:39 AM): fiza faham sgt22222222222222222222222
beckzaidan (10:42:12 AM): SDF
beckzaidan (10:42:32 AM): rasa mcm useless
stranger* (10:43:02 AM): nooooooooooooooooo
stranger* (10:43:07 AM): dun say things like that
stranger* (10:43:20 AM): macamana la fiza nak convince fendy
stranger* (10:43:35 AM): jgn selalu tgk the negative side of things
beckzaidan (10:43:55 AM): i cut my hair short,just to see her reaction
stranger* (10:44:03 AM): did she say anything/
stranger* (10:44:04 AM): ?
beckzaidan (10:44:11 AM): no
beckzaidan (10:44:22 AM): her cousins said she said nothing
beckzaidan (10:44:25 AM): she doesnt care
stranger* (10:45:46 AM): if she doesnt care about u,maybe u should stop caring about her
beckzaidan (10:46:13 AM): stop caring about her?
beckzaidan (10:46:17 AM): adoi
beckzaidan (10:46:36 AM): dieng is much more easy
stranger* (10:46:55 AM): i know it’s not easy
stranger* (10:47:10 AM): macam terasa ur soul n ur being is split into half
stranger* (10:47:17 AM): tapi kadang2 kena selfish kan
beckzaidan (10:47:52 AM): erm
beckzaidan (10:48:15 AM): ntah ahh fiza
beckzaidan (10:48:19 AM): i told u i recovered
beckzaidan (10:48:26 AM): but the truth is i never was
stranger* (10:49:28 AM): scars dry
stranger* (10:49:40 AM): eh silap
stranger* (10:49:44 AM): wounds dry
stranger* (10:49:49 AM): but scars stay
beckzaidan (10:51:02 AM): hurm
beckzaidan (10:51:35 AM): ntah la
beckzaidan (10:51:40 AM): its hard to be me…
stranger* (10:51:49 AM): dun give up on urself
beckzaidan (10:53:35 AM): somehow
beckzaidan (10:53:38 AM): alogn the way
beckzaidan (10:53:41 AM): i’ve already did
stranger* (10:54:10 AM): pick urself up
stranger* (10:54:13 AM): mend urself balik
stranger* (10:54:33 AM): macmana nak ada relationship lain kalau u cant fix urself balik
beckzaidan (10:55:26 AM): erm…
beckzaidan (10:55:32 AM): so i’m useless
beckzaidan (10:57:12 AM): ahaahahaa
beckzaidan (10:57:19 AM): laughing at myself
stranger* (10:57:25 AM): apa pulak
stranger* (10:57:31 AM): gelakkan diri
stranger* (10:57:43 AM): ppl learn from experience
stranger* (10:57:49 AM): grow up from it
beckzaidan (10:58:38 AM): and i learn nothing
beckzaidan (10:58:45 AM): enough about me
beckzaidan (10:59:00 AM): hate talking about myslef
beckzaidan (10:59:08 AM): just reminding me how a pathethic loser i am
beckzaidan (10:59:27 AM): dah org taknak, still buat muka bodoh, sogok sogokkan diri dengan idealisme yg me and her can be back together
stranger* (11:00:00 AM): it’s not wrong to hope
stranger* (11:00:12 AM): tapi it’s wrong if it starts to detroy urself
beckzaidan (11:00:41 AM): the idea of me and her back together, is crap
beckzaidan (11:00:46 AM): but still i’m hoping
beckzaidan (11:00:49 AM): loser ka
beckzaidan (11:00:51 AM): kan?
stranger* (11:01:31 AM): bukan loser namanya tu
stranger* (11:01:49 AM): it’s called ‘denial’
stranger* (11:02:05 AM): i just cant accpet the fact that u r no loner together
stranger* (11:02:25 AM): n the thought of either one of u with sumone new tu breaks u
beckzaidan (11:02:50 AM): i coulddefinitely see her with another person
beckzaidan (11:03:00 AM): but icouldnt see me with another
beckzaidan (11:03:33 AM): she’s a great person, surely someone will realize what i did
beckzaidan (11:03:42 AM): but the fact is
beckzaidan (11:04:30 AM): she drop the crap when she realizes she’s holding on one, and in search of a new bigger greater things
stranger* (11:05:01 AM): hmm
stranger* (11:05:09 AM): she’s making a namefor herself now?
beckzaidan (11:05:19 AM): dont know
stranger* (11:05:40 AM): hmm
stranger* (11:05:53 AM): taktau la fendy
stranger* (11:06:00 AM): i nak ckp pun i dun knwo he
stranger* (11:06:02 AM): her
beckzaidan (11:07:02 AM): all i know now, is that shes’ happy
stranger* (11:07:32 AM): be happy or her at least
stranger* (11:07:34 AM): k
stranger* (11:07:45 AM): walaupun benda tu menyakitkan hati
beckzaidan (11:07:56 AM): it really does
beckzaidan (11:08:09 AM): seing her pic on her cousins fotoblogs
beckzaidan (11:08:23 AM): rasa mcm nothing happened before
stranger* (11:08:30 AM): hmm
beckzaidan (11:08:33 AM): the questions is…
beckzaidan (11:08:42 AM): where’ have all the promises gone?
beckzaidan (11:09:05 AM): mana janji nak bersama, through thick and thin
stranger* (11:09:10 AM): some how along the way may be ur fate with her dah bertukar
stranger* (11:09:29 AM): maybe bukan dia yg berniat
stranger* (11:09:32 AM): hmm
stranger* (11:09:35 AM): ntah la fendy
stranger* (11:09:40 AM): complecated
stranger* (11:09:47 AM): complicated
beckzaidan (11:10:00 AM): erm…
beckzaidan (11:10:11 AM): as i still hold all of the promises…
beckzaidan (11:10:19 AM): dats hard
beckzaidan (11:11:44 AM): erm..
stranger* (11:11:53 AM): yeah
beckzaidan (11:11:55 AM): susah jadi orang mcm kita
stranger* (11:12:21 AM): yeap
beckzaidan (11:12:29 AM): beck rasa takmo jadi orang la
stranger* (11:12:43 AM): habeh tu nak jadi apa
beckzaidan (11:12:54 AM): jadi hantu
beckzaidan (11:13:45 AM): haha
beckzaidan (11:13:47 AM): mati
stranger* (11:13:50 AM): kesitu pulak dia
stranger* (11:13:52 AM): eh
stranger* (11:14:01 AM): sape that cute gurl on ur blog
stranger* (11:14:04 AM): comel btul
beckzaidan (11:14:15 AM): wanie
stranger* (11:14:34 AM): ur sister ke
beckzaidan (11:18:00 AM): pet sis
beckzaidan (11:18:08 AM): dia suka buat muka na dsend me the pic
beckzaidan (11:18:19 AM): selalu ketawa tgk dia
beckzaidan (11:18:51 AM): pengubat rindu pada my x juga
beckzaidan (11:18:57 AM): coz she have those kind of smiles
beckzaidan (11:19:26 AM): u know, those smiles that would make the time stops
stranger* (11:19:40 AM): wow!
stranger* (11:19:47 AM): i have yet to meet a person mcm tu
stranger* (11:19:58 AM): u’re lucky coz u know sumone who does
beckzaidan (11:20:07 AM): my x does
beckzaidan (11:20:18 AM): thats why i missed her smiles so much
stranger* (11:20:35 AM): bertuah nya org yg boleh senyum n make time stop
beckzaidan (11:20:40 AM): smiles that made the time stop, made u care less about the worlds and its problems
stranger* (11:23:17 AM): hahah
stranger* (11:23:20 AM): biar la
stranger* (11:23:26 AM): abaikan subjek itu
beckzaidan (11:23:38 AM): yeah
p/s:- she’s not a stranger after all… she’s another me…
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